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Thursday, February 08, 2007

Today nyco went to SCH for rehearsal. For the first time we played, i suddenly felt the syf mood and spirit. (oh! n smth funny happened after that song. mrs ee flung her conductor's stick at the end of the song. haha! somemore it was towards the xianyue direction. so shocking!) I really like that feeling because i feel that im not walking alone. However, when it came to my mo li hua solo, i didnt play well cos i dont know why i suddenly got nervous. After that, i recalled what yiqing said the day before our nac competition finals last yr,"i dont know why i feel exceptionally nervous for this competition. maybe it's because im going to play a solo in the song. if i didnt play well, the WHOLE group will be affected just becos of ONE person's mistake." And now, i finally get the taste of that feeling. Sometimes, it's not that i completely cant do it, it's like i can play what i want, but when it comes to playing it during dazu, i will not play as well. Nervous? perhaps. I think i really have to train myself to the stage such that i wont be nervous even during syf. Last year, during my nac preliminary round, I wasn't nervous at all. Only when i entered the stage, my heart suddenly beat extremely fast. Indeed, i didnt perform as well as usual. I believe it's because of my nervousness that has caused that. After that lesson, i've promised myself that i wont let my nervousness affect my performance anymore. So, i must do it for syf competition.

After school, we had cny concert rehearsal. We're playing mo li hua. The soloists each has a mic beside. Amusingly, when i played the soft parts, they sounded very loud. HAHA! Oh! And when the AV man helped me put the mic beside my erhu (which was a bit behind me), he said,"Now that the mic is behind u, dont fart." HAHA!

Oh wells. Then we had xiaozu. Since xiaozu was optional for the syf ppl, all my erhu batchmates left me alone. ): But xiaozu was fun because zls left some time for us to interact with the sec 1 juniors! Hehe. I find my sec 1 juniors rather sweet and adorable! sigh... XIANG3 DANG1 NIAN2... OH! GREAT DISCOVERY! I've a junior who has the same birthday as me. SO COOL RIGHT!
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After today, i realised that things aren't simple as it seems on the surface. When you take a closer look, you'll see many flaws in it. After knowing some things, i start to feel worried. We're not as good as we think. Or rather we're just not good. But time is running up. What can we do? We aim high, but can we reach it? What if we can achieve? :/

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Till we meet again..